Actor Ankita Lokhande said that she still struggles to address late actor Sushant Singh Rajput in the past tense. The two actors, who were co-stars on the hit show Pavitra Rishta, dated for seven years before calling the relationship off.
In the latest episode of Bigg Boss, Ankita opened up about dealing with Sushant’s death. The actor passed away in 2020. Ankita said Sushant was also her husband Vicky Jain’s friend, and to remind oneself that he is no more is the “worst feeling.” Ankita and Vicky got married in 2021. Recalling the emotionally draining time, Ankita revealed that she could not get herself to attend Sushant’s funeral as she knew she wouldn’t be able to see him. “Mein toh uske funeral pe bhi nahi gayi thi. Mei jaa hi nahi paayi. Muje laga mei nahi dekh sakti yeh. Mei yeh dekh hi nahi sakti (I did not even go to the funeral. I couldn’t go. I thought I wouldn’t be able to see him like that at all),” she added.
During the latest episode, when her co-contestant Munawar Faruqui shared a shayari on heartbreak, Ankita said that she was touched, but requested him to stop as it “hits badly”. She then proceeded to hum MS Dhoni: The Untold Story’s song “Kaun Tujhe.” The film starred Sushant.
A News18 report quoted her as saying that Sushant was a “good man”. While talking to Munawar, Ankita said on the episode how she feels “strange” whenever she uses the word “was” to describe Sushant.
“Bohot acha insaan tha woh. Main aise bolti hu na kabhi, tha, mujhe itna ajeeb lagta hai. Matlab abhi toh thik hai normal ho gaya hai. Vicky ka bhi dost hai na Sushant toh you know ab woh nahi raha is duniya mein is the worst feeling (When I use the word ‘was’, I feel so strange. Now it’s okay, it’s normal. Sushant was Vicky’s friend also and when I realise that he is no more, it is the worst feeling),” she said.